saturnus - all alone lyrics

i'm standing here
watcing the clouds float by
wondering why the pain never deserted me
the sadness, sorrow, bewilderness that never left
(...the moments of joy i never kept)

i'm flying away

holding hands with myself
sharing life with myself
reaping the loneliness i've sown
in these fields i've always grown
digging the blackness from my mind
i will die all alone