saliva - no regrets, vol. 2 lyrics

all the pain that haunts me still.
and all the shame surrounding you, is now the past that i can't kill.
forever wrapped around me.
and all the sadness was your life, are now the things that i can't hide.
it's just a fear that's deep inside, from all the years of hiding.

there's a ghost that's inside of my mind, and a pain is still haunting me.
so i can never go back and rewind.
and i can never have peace or be still.

somebody take this away.
but i have lived for you, and every single little thing you do.
but i have lived for you, and i won't kill myself for loving you.

they took you far away from me, so i could never find you.
they made me blind but i can see, the loaded gun behind you.
the end of all that this boy knew, inside of me was the inside of you.
i miss the way we used to be, when i was what would bring you through.

because i have lived for you, and every little thing you do.
but i can't rise above your lies, that you have gladly made your life.
and i won't kill myself for loving you.