ophthalamia - i summon thee, oh father / death embrace me lyrics

i sit in loneliness and watch the meaning of my past.
it dances and twitches then it lays down and dies.
i see the morning sky tremble and then it open and begin to cry
as night falls and darkness fills my room... whispering thoughts haunt
me,
my candle burns low.
can i find my fate ? can i be one with my desire ?
the perchment of my future burns fast and i burn myself
badly in my futile attempt to save it.
the black blood of my heart weeps, in every tear a part of myself.
i have features of youth but a soul of age.
why can't i see the web of lies my life is based upon so i can cut
them
and become one with the sky ? i long for the harmony... the peace
within me.
i wish to see myself in the burning light of truth and no longer be a
victim of hate.
i search for the purity in me... i search in my blood...
i open my vein to see what ever it may be.
and as the red rivers of my life flow from its tunnels and caves...
i see lies and falseness die.
i'm fading away, drowing in a thick mist of burning ice.
i'm showered in the blood of dying hate and i feel pure.
i'm taken to the breast of my truth and i'm reborn.