oleander - why i'm here lyrics

it's the reason for my pain
in a season to celebrate
i don't wanna be full of hate
for anybody, but it's too late

everyone has been in my face
telling me that i'm a disgrace
showing me things that i must face
telling me that they need their space

i cant' love you anymore
i'm scared of the sound of it

it's the reason why i'm down
i'm beaten been pushed around
hit the ceiling without a sound
everone i know considers me a clown

i can't love you anymore
i'm scared of the sound of it
i can't love you anymore
woman, i just wanted more

i can't love you anymore
scared of the sound of it
and woman, i just wanted more

it's the reason why i'm here