neolith - awakening (a prayer for dying) lyrics

my god promised me the paradise
but for what price?
all my life i am to carry his cross
to grieve, to weep, to kneel before him
i am to be one of his faithful servants
to pay homage, to offer sacrifices
and when he wishes it to die in his honour
for his glory, in his name
no!!! never!!!
i stand out against god, i break the cross
the symbol of his victory over the evil
i renounce believing him
my faith which restricts my freedom and kills me slowly
now that i am free from the lethal traps
of this senseless faith
i can see how the others suffer
blind and deaf puppets
as if in drugged trans
unlimitely devoted to god
they die every day in ignorance, in darkness
i trusted in god - and what did i gained
permanent insults, fear and humiliation
treating me like a dog!
i hate thee god!