labrat - merrick sympathiser lyrics

it starts right now
stake my claim for the throne of incompetence
come last at everything - every time
i have failed at all i have attempted
childhood goals tipped and up-ended

and you just look at me and say i fucking told you so
you're not the king of me i'm the king of me

so why do i still beg for your attention
my name remains a filthy word unfit for you to mention
i'm fucking shit, i'm really sick
i cannot cope, i don't think i can put up with it

here we go again - headlong into another scene
i put hands over my eyes and try to hide
it never changes, i've never lived up to your expectations
i am the cancer in your life - i am a burden

and all the times i tried my best, it's never good enough
cause every time i fail the tests - i'm just not good enough
too fucking stupid, too fucking dull
i can never live up to what you want from me
i've only just begun to find my feet
and you kick them right out from under me

i can't compete, this isn't fair i'm the circle that cannot fit the square
lying awake, cannot sleep
play over in my mind all that you've done to me
i smile outside - inside i'm screaming
and silently - in my mind i'll always be your enemy i am your enemy