gholgoth - absurdum lyrics

[in medias res: ... a chilling,dark blue-toned vision,which is actually a strong picture of a strange cruxifiction. night is embraced by magickal aura, words fly through the air:]
["fullmoon's light dancing on the hillside,]
[where a tiny crowd marching so noisy and swarming like a beehive,]
[going up to stand a third in between two crosses.]
[there's one dragger among them, whom will be surely crucified..."]

[but the text is a "bit" different...]

ancient room- moist and dark
yellow, timeless mildew on the walls.
in the centre a chair i sit
walls:
with countless eyes overlaid,
immense eyes:(numbers)
(it) hurts.

in a place foreign
(where foreignity i feel not)
these eyes urged to watch me

when you' re pushed under water, and you know you have not enough air:

"lungs adhered, nervepanic
so grotesque"
through craft unseen
staring fixed with no eyelids,
just sitting in the wall
so large are they like human...

heads.

as warmth fills my heart, a fever begins crawling,
swelling slowly away in my shape,
getting closer to my head,
to have it squashed.

the presence of fibrail engrams in gyrus:

green hand-seems mucous
a tongue, in this palm's middle
kisses one huge eye
lick through with pleasure
lick through with joy
tastes good...
cold
saliva
cold
tranquil

gazing hundreds of eyes
piercing, bursting me
i can not hide, i'm lame, i think.
nausea, fever, vacuum in the head
yell- a parched throath
(muteness.)
tranquil cold,
cold
i shiver, (it) hurts.

"circumdederunt me gemitus mortis:
dolores inferni, circumdederunt me.
non omnis moriar."

absurdum

unconsciously i stand up
with slow treads i walk to the door
like a scene of a motion picture
where each move is gnawing...
torture!
one flash
pain
one flash
dull hit on the chest...

[intermezzo:]
i reach the door. handle; turned. the door opens, then disappeares. blinding whiteness

through the door of liberty
out from here, to the white light,
from the room of eyes
to the light depraved.
i step into the crowd,
into the ziplipped people,
into the dead...

...to become dead.