filmmaker - falling and failing lyrics

i told myself, you've got to shake this jealous thing
its the last thing you need.
i told myself, just drop this anti-trust act.
it is so self defeating..and not worth repeating.
and i watched your whisper of a secret turn into a mountain of lie
there was always someone waiting in the wings.
we were something that i am not.

i am falling i am failing.
sometimes loss outweighs gain.
i am falling i am failing.
this kidding you is killing me.

don't hold it to coincedence that our paths don't cross anymore.
i am drowning in an ocean of thoughts and i can't spill out a single word.
these days the best i can do is a simple smile across crowded rooms.
you always swore you could never take him back.
i didn't think that never could come so fast.
i took you out on everyone.