eels - i'm going to stop pretending that i didn't break your heart lyrics

i'm gonna tell you what you need to hear
and i'm a little too late
by three or four years
and it may not make much sense
now that we are apart
but i'm going to stop pretending
that i didn't break your heart

you see i never thought enough of myself
to realize that losing me could mean
something like the tears in your eyes
and i want to tell you i'm sorry
and it's too late to start
but i'm going to stop pretending
that i didn't break your heart

and it's christmas eve
years down the line
sitting here wishing i'd treated you better
when you were mine
and i have no way of knowing where you are
but i'm going to stop pretending
that i didn't break your heart

i didn't mean to hurt you
i didn't know what i was doing
but i know what i have done