a.f.i. - the great disappointment lyrics

i can remember a place i used to go
chrysanthemums of white, they seemed so beautiful
i can remember, i searched for the amaranth
i'd shut my eyes... to see

oh, how i smiled then, so near the cherished ones
i knew they would appear... saw not a single one
oh, how i smiled then, waiting so patiently
i'd make a wish... and bleed

while i waited i was wasting away
while i waited i was wasting away

i can remember... dreamt them so vividly
soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
i can remember when i first realized
dreams were the only place to see them

while i waited i was wasting away
while i waited i was wasting away
while i waited i was wasting away
hope was wasting away
faith was wasting away
i was wasting away

i never, never wanted this
i always wanted to believe
i never, never wanted this
how could i have become?
i never, never wanted this
but from the start i'd been deceived
i never, never wanted this
how could i have become?

i never, never wanted this
i always wanted to believe
i never, never wanted this
i never, never wanted this
but from the start i'd been deceived
i never, never wanted this

inside a crumbling effigy
but you promised
so dies all innocence
but you promised me

while i waited i was wasting away
while i waited i was wasting away
while i waited i was wasting away
hope was wasting away
faith was wasting away
i was wasting away