5 days ahead - my cold november lyrics

that night i hung up the phone. tears were rolling down my eyes.
all i had was the comfort of my best friends. the next day left alone.

i watched the lions game. anything to get my mind off of you.
i didn't care who won; i already lost.
remembering those words that i deserved better than you.

i tried to say grace before dinner, but what do i have to be thankful for?
a heart ripped to shreds with the knife left at the foot of my door.

thanksgiving dinner never tasted so bitter.
i wanted to throw it up and send it to you
just to give you a reminder of how it feels
to destroy someone's holiday.

i went to turn on the tv. home alone was on, how fitting.
i tried to laugh but couldn't find a reason why. still left wondering why.
black friday never fit so perfect. it felt like a part of me just died.
seeing happy couples blissfully step through the stores.
i just wanted to rip out my eyes.

deep in a box, i buried a picture of you.
hoping to never see it again.
it still pops up sometimes.
and a tear still rolls down my eyes.

winter never felt so col