5 days ahead - better living through denial lyrics

i'm lying to myself. assuming that i had your heart.
and i wish i had the courage to say....

that it's alright, it's okay. you're not special anyway.
i'm not scared, i won't cry. i don't need you here tonight.

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but it always hurts so much. everytime you walk away from me.
and i don't know why i sit here patiently; waiting here...
...for a love i'll never know.

i'm crying to myself. cuz i know you're no longer mine.
and now since i've been on my own i can't say....

that i'm alright, i'm okay. i don't miss you anyway.
it didn't hurt, i didn't die, when you ran out of my lif