30 foot fall - better off dead lyrics

i woke up surprised and disappointed
to find out i was still me,
last night should've killed me.
took a shower couldn't scrub it off
tried to scream, i could only cough
i can't trust myself to be my own friend.
exhausted by the effort it takes to breathe,
the whole world is against me
that's what i belive,
don't waste your empathy on me

[chorus]
i'm through puttin one foot in front of the other
i'm do wanna run for cover
from the moment i wake up til i'm
starin at the ceiling trying to sleep
i wonder if i have a soul to keep.

voices in my head will not turn off
there's a heavy weight on top
of my chest today,
i don't want it to go away because,
the moment i let down my guard,
life will hit me twice as hard
my mistake, i thought i could have
just one day off
from pushing boulders up steep hills,
playin in traffic for cheap thrills
i don't know what to do
that's why i'm tellin you that

[chorus]

sometimes there's nothing on my mind
but everything at one time
find me sliding backwards down
to where i don't want to be found
stop with these tests give me some rest
my heart is beating right out of my chest
i do believe i have a soul to keep.